I remembered the first time I was robbed. It was a shady
alley. The path made of tar, the building on the right was abandoned, and the
building on the left was never completed. The paint was beginning to fade on
both buildings. Dumpsters, graffiti, broken bottles, burnt cigarettes-- the
only thing missing in this scene is a rat making a dash to the dumpster. I was
ignorant.
I should have listened to my friend’s warning, but I was
young and considerably naïve (dumb). I gave the world and everyone in it more
credit than it deserved. It was a sort of childhood innocence that had been
preserved by the people who had raised me. I’m 20 years old now. Twenty years
of being a Malaysian. Twenty years growing up in a city called Klang, which I’m
proud to call my own. Twenty years, and innocence still spirals around me like
vines around a tree. I was sheltered.
So, I took the first step and my friend reluctantly
followed. It was dark that night—the moonlight was dimmed by passing clouds—but
I took note of the little things: water dripping from broken a pipe, and the
echoes of crickets chirping. We were almost out when we heard the sound of a
motorcycle speeding towards us. I was scared.
There was little to identify about the person on the
motorcycle, except that he was a stocky male—he wore a regular t-shirt and navy
blue jeans. Before I could analyze the situation, he managed to get a firm grip
on my sleeve. In an adrenaline-pumped situation, the man and I were engaged in
a tug-of-war. He tried to pull me to where he was but I struggled—though it
seemed obvious he had the upper hand in brute strength. When pulling was too
much of a hassle, he shoved me—causing my foot to lose balance. Gravity played
the role of culprit that night and led to my falling. I felt the impact of
rocks pressing my back as the ground welcomed me with a cold embraced. I was hurt.
In the heat of the moment, all my friend could do was stand perfectly still—he looked like he was screaming, but not a single sound was heard. My ‘fight or flight’ instinct was on high alert, and I chose ‘Flight.’ In a matter of seconds after the fall, I got up, grabbed my friend and said: “Let’s go!” I was confused.
In the heat of the moment, all my friend could do was stand perfectly still—he looked like he was screaming, but not a single sound was heard. My ‘fight or flight’ instinct was on high alert, and I chose ‘Flight.’ In a matter of seconds after the fall, I got up, grabbed my friend and said: “Let’s go!” I was confused.
He clicked back into reality, and we ran as fast as we could
from the scene. The man, however, decided not to pursue.
For days, I tried to make sense of what happened that night—tried
to find a reason behind the man’s actions. William Shakespeare once wrote: The
eyes are the window to the soul. And I do so agree with Shakespeare.
You can tell a lot about a person just by looking through
their eyes; and I wished I had seen his. That way, I could try to understand his
situation. Perhaps he had a family that needed food; or he was a lonesome man
desperate for cash; or a man from an abusive family; or perhaps…
But I did not see the man’s eyes. I only felt his clenched
fist on my shoulder. And it lacked human touch.
I have made myself victim and my innocence paid the price. I
no longer find comfort in dark places for fear of the unknown. No longer feel
comfortable being feel safe around strangers in isolated spaces. I doubt good
intentions extended by others. The world I knew was darker after that fateful
incident. I was vulnerable
Sometimes, my friend and I would talk about that day.
Occasionally, he reminded me how lucky we were—narrowly escaping a robbery. I
wish that was true. I wish the story would have ended after I had fled from the
scene; but life is not a fictional tale. The scene never ends. I was unlucky.
That day, innocence was robbed.
Josh,
ReplyDeleteGood work. I like the attempt at empathy with the thief and the realization that you only felt his inhuman touch.
I actually liked the original version of the actual fight better. You used such choppy language and I think it enhanced the excitement.
By the end, I wonder if you're coming on a little strong. I think we know innocence was robbed because of the good writing about innocence--vines and such--that you've done about. So I'd take out that last sentence and end with "I was unlucky." Or, I was lucky and unlucky, perhaps.
Dave